Saturn Conjunct Pluto In Capricorn: Fear & Loathing

Only this isn’t confined to Las Vegas!  No, no, no; it’s infected our educational systems, our institutions, our governments, our leadership, our corporations.  There’s a gradual systemic rot that has taken a firm hold and degraded the (structural?) integrity of all the above and more.  I’ve been writing about the effects of the upcoming conjunction between Saturn and Pluto in Capricorn – which perfects in January 2020 – for about a good year and a half now, and there’s a reason.  This astrological event evinces grim and ugly realities that tend to inspire a certain degree of fear and loathing; hence the title of this post.

Now perhaps you are reading this and thinking those are pretty strong words for me to use as descriptors, but this cosmic combination is at bare minimum primarily an energy of discomfort and aversion; both collectively and in our individual lives.  How each of us are impacted by this event varies based upon where this combination perfects/what celestial bodies this duo might be touching in our own personal astrological charts, but the bottom line is we’ll need insightful management of this energy and likely to execute some kind of renewal plan as well.  Addressing structural rot – where we’ve built something up upon shoddy framing or let something fall into disrepair due lack of maintenance – is absolutely crucial ahead of this conjunction’s peak if we don’t want the whole thing to collapse in on us.

To put this in larger context, think about things like the undermining of democracy; the entire framework that supports the foundations our government.  Or the way Patriarchy supports and protects sexual predators by rewarding them with positions of authority (Donald Trump and Brett Kavanaugh, I’m looking directly at you) – remember The Good Old Days when even a whiff of this kind of filth would finish your career/reputation forever?  Not so nowadays; apparently it just cements your status as part of The Boys Club. 🙄😒  Remember way back in the Dinosaur Era when corporations – and especially insurance companies – didn’t rule the world and line the pockets of our elected officials? How about recalling the quaint age when the safety of the classroom was sacrosanct?  Times sure have changed, and certainly not for the better in these respects.  There is a major need to scrap and rebuild with this energy, but this is particularly difficult because most of us would rather keep trying to cobble something non-functional together for the sake of maintaining a sense of normalcy than deal with the ugly reality that what we really need to do is put on our Big Kid Pants, swallow hard, and write something off as a loss.  It takes maturity and wisdom to do the latter, but the compulsion to maintain even a defunct status quo is quite powerful when it seems even harder to grapple with a reality that fundamentally threatens to undermine our sense of security/safety/certainty/order.

How’s that really working for us, though?  Unless and until we acknowledge something as broken, how can we possibly work to restore it?  This post is an invitation to hold space for that which may be fractured in our individual and collective lives with a spirit of renewal; in full acknowledgement that we will likely have to labor to strip things back/tear them down before we can build back up.  Here are some ideas for where this fear and loathing might pop up and where the energy of challenge to renew might be best directed based on the area(s) of our chart being impacted by this conjunction.  You will need a basic understanding of astrology for this exercise to see where 23 degrees of Capricorn falls in your chart, but even with no astrological knowledge at all if you just pay very close attention to the things that give you both apprehension and a strong sense of disgust, you’ll likely be able to ID the areas to work on from the list below.  Note these are only some *possible* expressions of this conjunction’s energy; nothing is written in stone but is instead meant to provide flavor text.

1st House: Self-loathing.  Learning about Shadow aspects of our personality.  Misanthropy.  Experiencing a fear of/revulsion to aging/the degradation of our physical bodies or appearance.  The challenge: Psychologically coming to terms with the natural aging process and normal state of gradual physical decline while working to support our bodies as best we can through the Waning Crescent crone/sage phase of life.  Acceptance of the reality that we all have Shadow material to work on and doing our best to manage the facets of our Lower Self that we’re afraid to look at and take responsibility for.  Realizing that our negative experiences in life do not have to be permitted space to infect the rest of our Reality; containing the Darkness so it isn’t allowed to taint our views of life/the world.

2nd House: An aversion to the risk inherent in spending our own money coupled with the compulsion to spend others’ money instead (i.e. taking on debt). An inclination toward hoard/purge cycles with regard to physical possessions. Bad experiences/trauma – possibly of a sexual nature – that may have negated our sense of self-worth on a deep-seated level.  The challenge: Acknowledgement of the reality that “we can’t take it with us when we go”.  Reducing debt with the insight that it equates to voluntary financial enslavement to “owe” someone.  Fiscal empowerment through shrewd and solid longer-term investments that involve managed/minimal risk.  Engagement with a professional who can help us work on the root of any damaged sense of self-worth to renew our sense of value as a human being.

3rd House: An acute revulsion to our neighborhood, neighbors, siblings, and/or cousins; seeing the reality of their Dark Side.  Non-functional communication dynamics. Complex thought processes arising from a problem-solving place that can actually create impediments to effective dialog.  Obsessive thinking that isn’t solution-focused and that may threaten to suck us into the undertow of negativity. The challenge: Being aware of any degradation occurring in our ‘hood and either working to renew or limiting our liability in removing ourselves from a problem environment.  Forming a neighborhood watch.  Accepting only our part in any communication breakdown with siblings, neighbors, or kin and erecting appropriate psychological boundaries for protection, if need be.  Deconstructing what isn’t working for us with regard to our thought processes or communication dynamics and simplifying; overhauling and getting back to basics.

4th House: Strong emotions dredged up regarding our family-of-origin or homeland; especially if this entails disgust or contempt.  Bad memories haunting us.  Uncovering actual rot in our physical residence; possibly that affects the framing or foundation.  Pests like termites or carpenter ants seriously damaging the structure of our home, or an old faulty septic system backing up and giving us problems.  Unearthing old family secrets that may be a source of shame, such as finding slave owners or Nazis in our lineage.  The challenge: Breaking away from the “familiar-yet-f***ed up” and realizing that discomfort serves a purpose in telling us when it’s time to move on/away.  Finding the strength to settle in a locale that’s an energetic safe space rather than stay stuck rotting in place.  Leaving the Past behind and resolving any deep trauma in our history via the therapeutic process.  Undertaking serious home renovations.   Professional pest management/repellent solutions.  Transmuting any negative family karma by making reparations when/where possible while resolving to put a stop to ingrained cycles of dysfunction.

5th House: An aversion to the (pro-?)creative process; possibly due old and unresolved trauma.  Being horrified by children or seeing them as “bad”/“monsters”.  Negative experiences with stalker-y (older?) suitors.  The compulsion to either repress the sexual identity entirely or engage it without heart.  The challenge: To overcome any psychological hurdles that prevent us from recognizing ourselves as creative beings.  Addressing the root of any distaste we experience regarding children and resolving it within ourselves.  Looking at kids as energetic imprints of their parental influence if/when we have issues with their behavior; no child is “bad” and difficult behaviors are either learned or the result of psychological coping mechanisms for difficulties at home.  Becoming a surrogate guardian (in any sense) for a kid in need, or even an actual foster parent. Taking extra precautions when dating to quality-screen potential lovers.  Working on any repression we may be experiencing regarding our sexual identity via engagement with the therapeutic process. Realizing that sex is a poor substitute for real intimacy and addressing any subconscious dislike we may have for going deeper than just our skin.

6th House: Caginess about health matters and/or a revulsion regarding doctors and medical settings.   The potential of steadily deteriorating health; possibly the consequence of vices/bad habits, and frequently something we’re too afraid to address/get real about.  Toxic – literally or figuratively – workplaces.  Co-workers or employees that work to undermine us; possibly resulting from envy over our successes or status.  The challenge:  Utilizing the power of Preventative Medicine.  Dealing with the reality of any physical dis-ease.  Arresting any potentially progressive (hereditary?) condition in its tracks.  Working with heavy-hitter (specialist?) doctors/healers.  De-stigmatizing our attitude toward the state of our health; especially if it’s something that involves our psychological wellbeing.  Reducing or eliminating the things we know are bad for our health.  Managing/mitigating our risk of any inherited genetic conditions though proper diet, exercise, and lifestyle.  Screening our workplaces for literal or figurative “pollutants” – whether that’s noxious substances or people – and limiting exposure.

7th House: The potential for hesitancy and eschewal of committed partnerships; likely resulting from old and unresolved trauma (“It’s safer to just be alone”).  Or, engagement in intense relationship experiences that teach us some serious Life Lessons. Power/control dynamics within partnerships.  Learning from the Shadow material that arises in committed unions.  The challenge: Not closing ourselves off to others by challenging ourselves to safely engage in deeper intimacy.  Having healthy psychological boundaries between ourselves and our partner; boundaries that are rooted in a foundation of deep respect.  Taking responsibility for our own Shadow in a relationship and knowing from experience exactly where to draw the line between our “stuff” and our partner’s “stuff”.  Drawing on the wisdom of age to help us make empowering choices in regards to partnering where we may have previously struggled in the past.  Uncovering hidden programming/conditioning in partnerships and breaking it down via the therapeutic process; hitting Ctrl+Alt+Delete and wiping the slate of any defunct operating scripts that don’t support a healthy union.  Shunning turbulent connections in favor of mature, self-aware partnerships.

8th House:  The potential for serious phobias regarding things like death, taxes, and even intimacy. An aversion to merging with others sexually or in a financial context.  Distaste for dealing with estate matters; from things like living wills, to establishing legal protection in “worst-case” scenarios, to potentially rejecting an inheritance or legacy that comes with serious (messy/complicated) baggage or even responsibility (such as inheriting a parent’s business).  Restricted access to others’ resources, which may include difficulty securing loans.  The possibility of lessons surrounding the burden of (mandatory?) debt. The challenge: Sober and practical acceptance of life’s inevitabilities; unpleasant as they may be.  Having a plan in a crisis; emergency preparedness that helps us to stay level-headed when the proverbial crap hits the fan.  Working on intimacy by stripping back defenses and using this as a trust-building tool that solidifies alliances.  Limiting our liability concerning others’ financial status while also being willing to “put skin in the game” on low-risk investments (literal or metaphorical) that stand to build in value over time; good karma can result from “buying in” low and supporting/sponsoring someone learning to stand on their own – prudent screening advised as a precaution, of course. Having a carefully calculated debt repayment plan laid out if/when attempting to secure funding on our own.  Working our credit like a boss rather than letting a (negative) credit rating work us over. Not taking on more debt than is realistically necessary; clearly delineating a “want” from an actual bare necessity. Caution surrounding any “obligatory” debt we may be tempted to accept on the behalf of others because it’s accepted as “the norm” even though we truly might not be able to afford it (ex: paying for our daughter’s wedding, or financially supporting a parent in their retirement).

9th House: Abhorrence of topics that revolve around religion or politics, or experiencing views that contrast with our own re: these subjects as totally repugnant.  Fear of travel or airplanes; a subconscious sense of impending disaster regarding either that isn’t easily abated. The possibility of an education that puts us in serious debt. Staunch support of rigid, outdated, or even totalitarian philosophies. The challenge:  Working through any resistance toward passionate engagement regarding serious moral, political, religious, or cultural issues.  Breaking down for others what we perceive as a messed up dogma or way of seeing things with enough wisdom and restraint that we’re respected for our insights regardless of differences in opinion. Realizing that an aversion to travel can prevent us from having powerful, transformative, life-changing experiences while striving to take sensible precautions to avert danger abroad (i.e. avoiding a stay at the budget hotel on the wrong side of town). Considering the utility of any higher education we’re compelled to pursue before sinking ourselves into student loan debt; do we have a guaranteed return-on-investment, or are we merely following a conventional but defunct status quo that might not actually work for *us*? Deconstructing the parental model for our beliefs and worldviews; something infectious may have been planted deep within and yielded a malignant bloom – nip it in the bud.

10th House: A potential obsession with building/maintaining *an image*.  Possible antipathy toward “authority figures”, whether this is a parent, teacher, boss, law enforcement representative, or elected government official; likely due to the strongly negative influence of a similar figure in our history.  Controlling and/or sleazy mentors. Experiencing an intense pull toward a career path with power/authority. Ruthless ambition; achievement of high position(s) but the propensity to also fall into disregard.  Destroying and rebuilding one’s career/reputation/business/“brand”.  The challenge: Deconstructing what psychological fears might be compelling a fixation with image and social standing.  Not giving our power away to authority figures though either subservience or being “triggered” by their influence into reacting negatively.  Resolving any trauma surrounding parents, bosses, or teachers who may have made a strongly negative impression upon us.  Building or maintaining solid and empowering boundaries with mentors to prevent potential violations of propriety/ethics; respecting the fact that there is a power differential inherent in any student/teacher relationship which can be dangerous to both parties if/when lines are crossed.  Checking our motivations professionally; asking ourselves whether we seek to use power for selfish ends or are humbly compelled to bear the burdens of authority to protect and serve those under our wing.  Being in authentic energetic alignment with our Mission/Purpose on core level and using a deep-seated sense of integrity as the foundational cornerstone for our career/reputation/business/“brand”.

11th House: The possibility of a strong dislike/distrust of groups, clubs, and/or associations. Potential difficulty regarding dysfunctional social networks/”community”.  An inclination toward bad experiences within the group dynamic and/or a tendency to suffer the consequences from “falling in with the wrong crowd”.  Age or elder figures corrupting/tainting our aspirations and ideals.  The challenge: Regular quality-screening of our social spheres for problem elements and not fearing to purge when/where necessary.  Transforming negative social experiences by working to restore/rebuild our trust in humanity.  Limiting liability regarding our risk of being left holding the bag for our friends’ character flaws.  Steering clear of power/control dynamics where the hive mind is permitted to hold sway. Realizing when/where age or elders have polluted our social ideals, possibly twisting them with cynicism, bitterness, or hate; working to rectify this and transform lead into gold.

12th House:  The inclination to have an aversion to Surrender/“giving it up to god”.  Possibility of holding hoary grudges against Divinity for times we’ve been let down; where we strongly feel god didn’t “come through” for us in moments of severe crisis.  The potential for a serious obsession with “psychic” phenomena. Possible unconscious compulsion toward self-sabotage, or to experience hardship via addiction to vices.  Ancient and secret trauma – perhaps regarding a parent – that’s difficult for us to resolve because it is scary-powerful; it may be locked away in the psyche and forgotten about but manages to drive subconscious behavior nonetheless.  The potential for a rigid fixation with illness; possibly manifesting as intense phobias of being “contaminated” or “infected”. Nightmares that seem all too real.  The challenge: Working to overcome any subconscious need for control. Transmuting resentment into forgiveness when it comes to our spirituality and the challenges we’ve endured in life.  Realizing that crisis and hardship serve complex spiritual purposes that we have limited insight into during this mortal incarnation.  Relegating our submersion into the “psychic” realms to fixed/finite periods and practicing self-regulation so we’re not obsessed with being “read” by intuitives, mediums, etc.  Purging any compulsive cycles of self-undoing via working with a professional trained in the therapeutic arena.  Unlocking our psyche with the power of relaxation, meditation, and dreams that we use as tools to help us access our subconscious.  Realizing that illness isn’t confined to just the physical plane and may actually be rooted in the psychological and/or spiritual realms, where we must also do prevention/extraction work (with proper supervision from one trained in this area, of course). Learning the symbolism of our dreams and working with them to deconstruct what it is our bad dreams stem from.

10/27/2018

Jupiter In Sagittarius Square Neptune In Pisces, Part 2

We’ve already discussed some of the potential downsides to the upcoming square between Jupiter in Sagittarius and Neptune in Pisces in Part 1 of this series, but now I would like to shift the focus over to its potential benefits.  Before I proceed though, it’s important to mention this square isn’t operating in a vacuum; it has the benefit of being connected to the equally powerful and grounding influence of Saturn in Capricorn c/o Saturn’s ongoing sextile with Neptune.  This is a MAJOR plus, as neither Jupiter nor Neptune prefer being earthbound.  Good old reliable Saturn keepin’ it real over in Capricorn is holding the fort down; making sure we get/keep it together whilst Jupiter and Neptune square off.  The old Zen proverb “Before enlightenment, chop wood carry water.  After enlightenment, chop wood carry water” seems particularly apropos when considering the effects of this trifecta, as Saturn has much to do with Work and both Jupiter and Neptune are highly spiritual energies. To stay grounded during this square, we must roll up our sleeves and keep doing the mundane things that keep us firmly moored when we might otherwise float away.  Further, the spiritual purpose behind any epiphany experienced during this square may entail taking this newly enlightened state and applying it in real-world ways; vision and imagination function best – even if divinely inspired – when we humbly set about to use them to practical effect.  Our responsibilities also do not simply vanish just because our philosophy about life, the universe, or our spirituality has altered – work is the constant; all else is variable.

With the broader contextual understanding of the how the square between Jupiter in Sagittarius and Neptune in Pisces is actually subject to the influence of a 3rd planet, let’s get into some of the upsides of this energy now:

1) If you need a big miracle, pray – nothing brings out the beneficent side of Divinity like aspects between Jupiter and Neptune!  But in the spirit of also honoring Saturn, do The Work as well – show The Universe you have something substantial to offer in terms of your willingness to meet it halfway in manifesting a Neptune miracle.

2) This square can take us places beyond our wildest dreams; literally in terms of global travel or figuratively in terms of Journeys of the Spirit. For this to go well, heed Saturn – plan.  Have an experienced and reputable guide. Be prepared and know what to be careful of; do *not* just wing it & hope all will go well during this square! Also, re: Journeys of the Spirit, I expect ayahuasca retreats and the like to be huge during this square but I would generally advise against mixing travel & substances because hallucinogen-addled tourists = easy pickings. On a related note, ever watch an episode of “Locked Up Abroad” where unwitting tourists get used as drug mules and are sent to prison, LOL?  Besides, sobriety is a functional baseline level from which to operate with Saturn parked in Capricorn, which helps to keep Neptune’s penchant for altered states of consciousness in check.

3) If you need to secure a grant or scholarship to help with your tuition, this square could provide opportunities *provided* you’re also willing to put in the effort and honor Saturn.  Bust your butt to get good grades and look for other opportunities to exemplify distinguished academic leadership, because without Saturn this square can also burst bubbles and create huge disappointments re: tertiary education if we haven’t laid foundational groundwork.  Don’t slack, and don’t be overly idealistic regarding the university experience.

4) Intuition is amped up by this square and prophetic tendencies proliferate.  It may be tricky to sort truth from self-deception, however – self-honesty is crucial re: any kind of psychic impression or divination, and checking our projections that may be based on exaggerated hopes or fears gives us the wisdom to sort Truth from Fiction. Acknowledgement of this reality makes us less susceptible to misinterpreting.  And when in doubt, wait it out; learn from experience when intuition has spoken true vs. when it has been colored by our bias.

5) Our spirituality is increased by this square – we’re likely to yearn for connection with something greater than ourselves and long to believe that Divinity has our Highest Good in mind (and it always does!).  This square can expand our perception of how “God/Goddess/The Universe works in mysterious ways” and augment our connection to the unseen world of Spirit where Divinity, our Spirit Guides, and/or Guardian Angels work behind the scenes.  But this square can also generate uncertainty about our spiritual Path, or might have us placing our faith in false gurus/prophets.  (Good) Judgement is frequently eclipsed by this square; making it tricky to pierce the veil of the idealized narrative we’ve told ourselves that actually obscures greater spiritual Truths. The potential gullibility or suggestiblilty of this square benefits from a dash of Saturnine skepticism and pragmatism.  Test theories and subject beliefs to healthy scrutiny to see if they’re functional and useful.  Don’t automatically accept everything as gospel, and be aware of the reality of your own & others’ biases.

6) There’s a generosity of spirit conveyed by the square between Jupiter in Sagittarius and Neptune in Pisces that’s great for boosting charitable inclinations and altruistic concern for broader social causes. The poor, ill, and helpless benefit from this vibe and we’re compelled to do more to help the needy or meek.  That said, this energy can also bring out a scammy, unscrupulous side to humanity where people lie to obtain a benefit – “Trust but verify” is a perfect mantra for this square so that we’re able to do the most good for those who truly need it most.  Again, Saturn is our friend here, helping us to assure we’re placing our faith in the right causes and people by asking us to hold up a minute and check credentials.

7) This square idealizes justice and will sacrifice much for “what’s right”; calling to mind the image of the civil rights movement and those who give their all on moral principle. The inclination is to promote a utopian vision of some kind and lift all of humanity up. This isn’t a bad thing provided we’re not confusing a personal truth for a Universal Truth, because morality is something entirely subjective and it’s entirely possible to delude ourselves into painting with a very broad brush in a way that doesn’t respect others’ Truths under this square.  Respect and boundaries – Saturn – help prevent a well-intentioned belief from becoming some kind of delusional dogma/propaganda we seek to blanket the world in.  We should also be aware that on the flip side, this square has the equal capacity to constitute miscarriages of justice where the Truth and what’s Right & Good is skewed; especially due political flimflam.  It’s very troubling indeed when political propaganda seeks to paint those asking for accountability in government as liars (See: The current situation here in the USA).  Jupiter in Sagittarius can be quite the propagandist and highly prejudiced to boot, while Lo-Fi Neptune can be super slimy in Pisces – if one is looking to spread a warped ideology with lies and spin, this certainly has the capacity to interfere with justice being served. Big issues may get obfuscated with massive smokescreen operations; don’t be deceived and continue to keep the pressure on and demand Saturnine accountability; falling back on the Hi-Fi potential of this energy to sacrifice all for the Truth and what we believe in.  Don’t believe those who insist that you “Look the other way; nothing to see here” – see through their *coughbullshitcough* attempted Jedi mind tricks, because they *are* the droids you are looking for!

09/27/2018

Saturn In Capricorn Square Chiron In Aries, Part 3

Hands up; who’s had the sense the sands of the hourglass are slipping through our fingers ever since Saturn arrived in Capricorn at the end of 2017?? As the current square between Saturn and Chiron continues this is not something likely to immediately let up and there’s a very real sense that no, we cannot do it all.  Maybe age is catching up with us.  Perhaps we’ve found ourselves limited with some kind of physical injury that gives us the painful realization this notion we *can* (or “should”) do it all is actually an incredibly ableist POV. It’s possible we’re dealing with severe professional pressure/angst.  Maybe instead it’s serious parental pressure/angst; either regarding our own parents or our role *as* a parent.  Perhaps we *are* a working parent and it’s a combination of these last two scenarios.  Whatever the case, it can hurt like hell to realize we can’t make time for *everything* on our list of priorities but something we want to be or do simply isn’t going to make the cut.  To manage this, we must figure out what is most important to us and create a personal hierarchy.  Though it sucks to cull something we just don’t have time for anymore, the alternative is continuing to live under the crushing weight of this immature notion that we can/should do it all and let it slowly squeeze the life out of us.  If you can, delegate. If you can’t, resolve to give something up for at least the next two years (i.e. the remainder of Saturn’s stay in Capricorn) because it’s not sustainable to carry on like this. Hopefully there’s something you can put on “hold” till later to help alleviate this pressure because time can indeed heal all wounds if we will but give some to ourselves.

**Read the previous installment in this series: Saturn In Capricorn Square Chiron In Aries, Part 2

08/29/2018

Saturn In Capricorn Square Chiron In Aries, Part 2

10 of Wands as depicted in the RWS tarot.

So we’ve already spoken about one potential manifestation of the current square between Saturn in Capricorn and Chiron in Aries in Part 1 of this series.  Another wound this vibe tends to exacerbate is a tendency toward over-responsibility where we take on onerous burdens and try to shoulder a load all by ourselves.  Aries energy tends toward D.I.Y (“Lemme do it MYSELF!!!”) but with Chiron here this tends to be the result of an old injury; the friction generated by Saturn in Capricorn is almost like an “eldest child” type of vibe where it feels like we never got/get to be what we want(ed) to be. We tend to just accept what’s expected of us by our parents, teachers, or others whom we respect without necessarily considering if it’s something we even *want* for ourselves as we fall in line with a sense of utter resignation and follow orders. Until that one day when we have the sudden epiphany of “Eff you; I won’t do what ya yell me!” – there’s a definite clash between old-school and new-school with this vibe and the pain that results from this conflict can be our greatest teacher.  It will not, however, be easy.  But nothing worth having ever is, and thankfully both Aries and Capricorn energy tend to be up for a challenge – the product of this may be a hard-won sense of sagacity beyond our years.

**Read the next installment in this series: Saturn In Capricorn Square Chiron In Aries, Part 3

08/29/2018

Saturn In Capricorn Square Chiron In Aries, Part 1

With Saturn arriving in Capricorn back in December and Chiron only just entering Aries this past April, these two celestial bodies have largely managed to avoid clashing with each other in their respective new surroundings.  It’s almost as if they were taking their time getting acquainted with their new zodiac digs first, but with Saturn now at the tail-end of its  retrograde reversing it all the way back to 2 degrees of Capricorn where it threatens to back into frictional contact with Chiron, these two cosmic contenders are currently getting on each other’s nerves.

What’s the beef?  Simple – Chiron is in an infantile sign (Aries; AKA the Newborn of the zodiac) while Saturn is the uber adult in Capricorn. Like a baby screaming in frustration and/or pain over hunger, a diaper that needs to be changed, or god knows what else, one cosmic energy operates from a very base simplistic level that’s apt to be angry/reactive while the other is cold and supremely self-controlled. Note that neither behavior is inherently “better” than the other; it’s just they have two totally different modes of operating where neither really understands the other. Age isn’t a factor either; exactly who is being the “adult” and who is behaving childishly in a given situation may have nothing to do at all with how old we are or our familial role/hierarchy because when we are in pain the delineating line that separates “the men from the boys” often goes right out the window completely independent of age or gender.

So how does this energy manifest?  Well speaking of family roles, parental wounds tend to (re?)surface for one.  Ever feel like you’re dealing with a brick wall when it comes to Mom and/or Dad?  Brace for impact, because this vibe is likely to exacerbate such dynamics.  Paternal relationships are particularly sensitized by Chiron’s coarse brushing; fatherly energy resonating strongly with the Saturn archetype. Relationships with teacher/mentor or elder/elderly figures can be similarly affected by this square.  Now this is just a caution; *not* a fatalistic pronouncement that nothing can be done about such situations if they indeed arise.  If scenarios like this do happen, though, it’s an opportunity for us to heal an (old?) injury and gain wisdom regarding what *not* to do the next time around.  And there may not even be a next time; this square never quiiiiiiite perfects even though it comes close.  So there’s a sense of learning some kind of lesson through this painful experience in a way that fortifies us and makes us wiser.

What is that lesson?  It can vary, but the utility of caution/restraint/healthy boundaries is certainly an important consideration.  Metaphorically, if we can see inflammation acting as sort of a “Police line; do not crossyellow caution tape we’ll get a pretty good idea of what’s a safe level to engage at vs. that which is decidedly off-limits.  On the flip side, Saturn tends to be overly restrictive/repressive in Capricorn so it can also be about figuring out what the “safe container” is to hold that pain.  Perhaps it’s calling in a pro; some kind of coach or therapeutic figure who can hold the appropriate space for us to unpack that baggage and come up with a management plan.  Maybe it’s agreeing only to engage at a respectful level and one of bare necessity.  Painful as this reality is to acknowledge, sometimes the best relationship we can have with others is either 1) a no-frills one or 2) none at all – sometimes there’s a limit to the amount of healing that can be achieved and it’s safest for one or both part(y)(ies) to stay in their own lanes at a respectful distance; especially if/when the effort is one-sided. They say that “Time heals all wounds” and though it can indeed be a balm of sorts, it’s far from a cure-all and at times despite the wait and generous amounts of elbow grease we apply in service to healing we can still hit a wall; especially when this entails dealing with those who are stuck in rigid/outdated ways of being/doing.  Some are not driven to heal; they can only get as far as they can on *their* individual healing journey and we can’t measure this against *our* yardstick.  Saturn’s primary function is to define limits, so it’s better to recognize the barrier/impediment for what it is in order to preserve our sanity; issuing an internal cease & desist order to ourselves regarding our expectations about what that relationship can/should be.  Sometimes we have to take it on the chin and accept the “L”; even if/when it hurts – simply take as a lesson on how *not* to do/be.

**Read other installments in this series: Saturn In Capricorn Square Chiron In Aries, Part 2 Saturn In Capricorn Square Chiron In Aries, Part 3

08/13/2018

Manifesting Neptune Miracles

We so often hear about Neptune’s trickier side in astrology; its propensity for deception, denial, obfuscation, escapism, addiction, and delusion. While all of that is certainly true in discussing the Lo-Fi potential of this planet’s energy, that’s only the half of it; what if I told you Neptune also has an exquisitely Divine countenance that – when it smiles upon us – gives us direct access to transcendental states of being? Neptune energy alone can hold us in an invisible auric forcefield where we’re enveloped in a state of infinite love, kindness, and mercy by The Universe (or insert your deity[ies] of choice here) in a way that allows us to totally Trust. We may not know where we’re going or how exactly we’ll get there, but we’re nonetheless compelled to surrender our individual will and flow/float in the current of something that we feel is divinely orchestrated. The experience of Neptune can indeed be a direct a “Hotline to Heaven” where our prayers are heard and answered, but how can we help ensure this is the way it plays out for us vs. being lured by the Siren Song of Lo-Fi Neptune into a riptide that sends us crashing upon jagged rocks?

It’s actually deceptively simple while also being easier said than done. Rocks represent cold, hard Reality – we have to acknowledge the Saturnian terrain of limitations, obstacles, facts, challenges, and workable parameters whenever we’re dealing with Neptune instead of just allowing ourselves to gloss things over with a slick sheen that would surely only trip us up later. With Neptune, it’s easy to get swept up in fantasy to the exclusion of What Is; ignoring all that doesn’t fit into our idealized narrative of How We’d Wish It To Be. But with Neptune finding supportive links to Saturn multiple times during 2019 (late January, mid June, & early November), it’s going to get a whole lot easier to incorporate a rational sense of practicality with this planet’s dreamy romanticism; especially for those who have planets or points in their chart located around 14-19 degrees of any Earth or Water sign and this zone of Capricorn and/or Pisces in particular. Sobriety helps, as does having A Plan. Organize. Think about the long term vision, and maybe even ask for help via professional advice or a mentor. Because while God(dess)/The Universe/Divinity may provide, we’ll definitely have to do some heavy lifting. Earn your miracle. Prove that you respect any godsend you’ve been given by working your ass off to maintain it – roll up those sleeves and sweat your prayers.  🙏

07/20/2018

Neptunian Idealism In The Land Of Saturn In Capricorn

With the Neptune vibe super strong for the foreseeable future c/o its occupation of Pisces, we need to have a discussion about this planet’s idealism for a moment.  Planets in Pisces, the 12th House, or in aspect to Neptune tend to distort our view of reality; it’s just how this energy operates.  When this applies to the planet Venus it can affect how we see our partners or women in general – the same is true of the Moon, with a slightly different flavoring that it’s inclined to skew our views on maternal figures or the mother of our children (if we partner with women, that is).  Neptunian energy affecting either the Moon or Venus tends to broadly impact our relationship with women and this can mean we may ignore/miss some major red flags regarding females.  Now if it’s Mars or the Sun in Pisces, the 12th House, or in aspect to Neptune, men tend to get idealized instead – both are Masculine planets, and again there’s apt to be this distortion thing going on.

Neptunian energy affecting anything is prone to projecting worship onto false idols – I have this theory that may times we may do so due to early disappointment with a parent.  For example, they may have been absent, addicted, or ineffectual and we were so let down by this we cope by (consciously or unconsciously) fantasizing about a mythic “savior” or “saint” who never disappoints us in this way.  However, human beings have a very difficult time living up to this fantasy.  They’re often tragically flawed so when we fling these glamorous qualities onto the blank canvas of someone else serving as a stand-in, we risk repeating the cycle when the blinders finally do come off.  Unless we just keep them on and continue glossing over the fact that our suffering has led us to project illusory qualities onto a figment of our imagination.

Here’s the thing, though: Denial never makes it better.  When “The man behind the curtain” is finally revealed for what they are, we mustn’t excuse or enable. We have to learn to live with disappointment for what it is instead of perpetuating cycles of sickness.  And if we cover for someone, make excuses for them, and/or enable them, we’re not only victimizing ourselves without realizing it (because it gives them permission to do it again) but we also potentially risk victimizing others via our blind devotion.

There’s this unconscious defense mechanism that can be triggered as a result: Denial. Instead of allowing this insular bubble of fantasy to be burst, the individual views everyone criticizing the person on their pedestal as “lying”.  This is where the blind devotion comes in; you see it time and time again with sexual abuse in families, for example – “Oh he would never do that”.  Meanwhile, the person they’re defending has been arrested and arraigned on charges of soliciting a minor and there’s evidence for days; including emails, texts, and photos.  But when Neptunian energy holds sway, none of that matters.  An individual will just bury their head in the sand and insist the charges are fabricated rather than face the crushing disillusionment that their precious so-and-so is actually a very sick individual.

So here’s the TL;DR version: If you have the Moon or Venus affected by Neptunian energy, know your views of women aren’t likely to be very realistic.  If it’s the Sun or Mars, how you see male figures is prone to the same kind of distortion. Either way in these Saturn in Capricorn times, it’s time to straighten this out. Saturn’s power is equal to Neptune’s now, and this = a Reality Check; particularly when Saturn moves into a sextile with Neptune in 2019.  It’s time to pump the brakes and stop projecting fictitious qualities and “can do no wrong” innocence upon real life figures who are just as human and fallible as the rest of us.  We mustn’t genuflect to the cult of fame, either; rather look instead to those using their social status/position as a platform to make a real difference in the world via humanitarian causes – these are the ones who earn our respect in this Saturn in Capricorn era.

05/18/2018

Saturn Conjunct Pluto In Capricorn: Beware Of Toxic Teachings

With Saturn now in Capricorn and gradually working its way toward a conjunction with Pluto in 2020, it’s becoming more important than ever to guard ourselves against “toxic teachings”. Though we have some time before this conjunction perfects, it’s definitely something we want to prepare for well in advance and the longer we give ourselves, the stronger the buffer. I’m putting out this caution now because Pluto’s energy tends to corrupt things gradually in Capricorn; it’s never an overnight process and with Saturn playing the role of Cosmic Teacher we do have to be very careful that any educations instilled in us aren’t twisted. This ranges from ancient lessons imparted by parents or mentors that were perhaps rather messed up, to rigid programming drilled into us by our leaders, or any kind of teaching implanted in us by anyone that we consider an “authority” – this includes spiritual and occult “leaders” as well.

It is this last item I want to discuss in particular, because it can be very dangerous when a toxic teaching takes root in our psyche or soul and metaphysicians work on these levels almost exclusively. Spiritual and occult leaders are often granted a form of absolute power due to the intense loyalty of their followers; nobody stops to question their authority, and those that do are often gagged and shunned. But as we’ve seen time and time again with every fall from grace since antiquity, being wise, perceptive, and in a position of prominence does not make one exempt from serious moral failings and character defects – it does not render one immune to criticism, nor let them off the hook from facing the consequences arising from any abuse of power.

When it comes to the psyche and the soul, we have to be more watchful than ever about substituting someone else’s authority for our own internal sense of authority. This is not an area where we should ever allow someone to usurp our power from us because dysfunctional constructs, programming, and conditioning can take root and bear poison fruit if we’re not careful; particularly as we get closer to the conjunction of Saturn with Pluto in Capricorn. We need to be particularly cautious regarding what we’re letting our teachers and leaders sow inside of us now – this especially applies to any toxic teachings regarding how we “create our own reality” , which may then used to mask forms of abuse. We need to watch out for any kind of teaching that could potentially infect us with Surrogate Responsibility Syndrome™; a condition where we psychologically take on responsibility/blame for something that frankly doesn’t belong to us and never did.

This is where certain New Age precepts can actually become dangerous – in reality, IMO it is a covert form of control fetish to buy into the false teaching that everything in life is completely within our influence and we’re 100% responsible for every (negative) circumstance in it, as in “I attracted the lesson”. Sometimes we do through poor choices and lack of good judgement, yes, but other times it has absolutely nothing to do with us at all – if bad things sometimes happen to good people (like pediatric cancer to an innocent child) or good things happen to bad people (Trump becoming president), we’re a bit out of line for thinking that we’re responsible for *everything*. We have no business trucking with this kind of control freakery when it actually has the potential to be very damaging – for example, toxic teachings that imply we’re somehow responsible for being raped or for being abused by our parents. This is an undercover form of Stockholm Syndrome – instead of placing the blame where it belongs (i.e. squarely on the shoulders of the abuser), we internalize this burden and make it about *us*.

On a psychological level, it’s understandable that one might subconsciously do this as a self-protective measure; convince themselves the circumstance was somehow within their control. But at the end of the day this is how we enable abuse to continue; by not holding it accountable – this is how we wind up with problems like teaching our girls how *not* to be raped instead of teaching our boys *not* to rape and it’s how we wind up with things like rape apologists. To put a stop to this corruption, we need to hold abusers accountable and stop manipulating our psyches with the covert power trip that we “create our own reality” and that everything is within our ability to control – it’s not. Get off the exit well before Saturn hits that conjunction with Pluto in Capricorn, because otherwise it’s a dead-end.

02/26/2018

Saturn In Capricorn: Mastering Delegation

The 3 of Pentacles as depicted in the RWS Tarot.

Saturn in Capricorn is a lot like being the General Contractor of a jobsite; something is under construction in whatever area of your chart Saturn is currently transiting and YOU are the foreman overseeing this whole operation. Now as the GC you don’t do all the work yourself – perhaps you take on the work that you’re most qualified to do, but you hire subcontractors to take care of the more specialized jobs like the electrical, plumbing, HVAC, etc. because 1) You acknowledge these aren’t your areas of particular expertise and 2) It frees up your time so your considerable experience can be put to better use ensuring that everything is being done the right way and in the proper order. Every building plan needs someone to supervise its execution – that, my friends, is YOU.

Or, to use a different analogy, Saturn in Capricorn is similar to being the CEO of a major corporation; you’ve put the systems, proper framework, and hierarchy in place so you can concentrate on making all those high-level executive decisions. No matter how much of a control freak you are, you can’t possibly do *everything* yourself and have to rely instead on the organizational backbone you’ve established to support you/your business.

Saturn in Capricorn is an uber-responsible vibe, so often when it contacts one of our planets or visits a particular House in our chart we tend to put a lot of pressure on ourselves to TCOB. That’s all fine and good; we’re likely very ambitious and working toward some kind of monumental goal. But the weight of that burden may be heavier than expected, so it’s prudent to think about what labor can be delegated to others in order to make the load more manageable. This is not to be confused with pawning off our duties; rather it’s about orchestrating all the proper elements and putting the right support structures in place so we can reach that finish line. Mastering the Art of Delegation is important if we want to be successful during the roughly 2 ½ years that Saturn visits this sign, so by all means hire help, tag out and enlist the support of someone who’s more experienced/qualified at a particular task, and generally put people to work for you if/when possible. You don’t have to be a GC or CEO to do this; try it in any context that works for you/your situation.

01/25/2018

Saturn In Capricorn: The Era Of “No”

Beginning on December 19th 2017, we’ve ushered in a new era: The Era of “No”. Whilst Saturn resides in Capricorn for roughly the next two and a half years, we are firming up our boundaries, ensuring that our time and work is respected, and turning down/away those who can’t grok this; especially so if they can’t get it together or generally behave like mature adults. This is the era of shutting shit down, folks – from the habitual line steppers, to the clueless flakes, to the chronically needy; there’s going to be a whole lotta “no” going on. As in:

Do not pass go, do not collect $200; go directly to jail – Gandalf has just become our steely new boundary-setting Saturn in Capricorn mentor  😉  No, you don’t get to take up someone’s time/energy/space free of charge. No, it’s your responsibility to be in charge of your own life, thank you very much. And no, you don’t get to suck on this teat anymore #SorryNotSorry. Saturn in Capricorn is the line-in-the-sand giving us the firm resolve to put a stop to the things that should be stopped.

On the other side of the coin, we also need to be mindful not to take this too far – we must be sure to check ourselves before checking others, because otherwise it can be easy to O.D. on this parental “enforcer” type of vibe and get too big for our britches. Saturn in Capricorn = knowing our role; what it is, what it isn’t, and staying squarely within the bounds of our own authority.

Saturn In Capricorn: Tick Toc

It’s just a couple more days until Saturn finally bids Sagittarius adieu and heads into Capricorn; a sign it hasn’t occupied since the late 1980’s. The Ringed One enters the sign of the Goat on December 19th at 11:49pm ET, and from the moment it does so we may begin to sense a palpable tick-toc, tick-toc effect keeping perfectly measured time somewhere in our lives. This particular astrological placement is incredibly time-conscious and no other cosmic influence can make us more aware of the apparent lack thereof; whether we’re talking hours in the day or years of our life. Everybody’s “biological clock” starts ticking louder than normal under this energy regardless of the specific milestone being used for measurement (marriage, babies, career achievement, a particular age, retirement, etc).

Rather than allow this to inspire anxiety, dread, or fear, it becomes a matter of how we might best manage the increased sense the grains of the hourglass are slipping through our fingers. For this reason conserving our time and effort becomes crucial during the next two and a half years while Saturn resides here; we are very aware that it is a finite resource so it becomes more important to guard it and stop squandering it on situations or people unlikely to yield the results we hope for. Sorting our priorities in a hierarchical fashion is the way to go so we allocate the most effort and hours into that which matters most to us, because we are quite likely to experience significant time crunches throughout this astro-passage. Frugality is chic when Saturn resides in Capricorn and prudent conservation of time and effort now pays off later. We especially do not waste time on childish things now, like drama, or on things that aren’t going to get us where we want to go in life such as dead-end jobs or relationships, and on people who never seem to learn from their mistakes or who won’t grow up. Saturn in Capricorn is all about learning who and what we have time for and – more importantly – don’t. Maturity, sobriety, having a 5-year plan and/or generally having one’s shit together becomes the name of the game during this transit.

12/17/2017